“For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ” 1 Thessalonians 5:9
I think it is time we break up. We have been playing this song and dance since I was 4 years old. You were there when Mama brought my little brother home and she ignored me. I was so excited to see her too!! But you got into my head that day and gained your foothold. You knew my mind was different, that I processed things too intensely. You have sought every opportunity to sneak into my thoughts in hopes to destroy me so that I may destroy others. God gave me this mind for a reason; to do good for others. But, you are there every time I rise to the mountain top, only to yank me down into the pit of darkness. Each time I fall further down and work twice as hard to get a glimpse of the light. I am so tired.
I am so tired and weary of developing a relationship with Christ only for you to put doubts in my head and put a chasm between God and me. “Get behind me satan!” Matthew 16:23. I choose to no longer live a life full of darkness, shame, self loathing and doubt. Jesus is my armor and I’m going to let Him fight my battles from now on. I know you will try to sneak in again. Sometimes you might succeed. But, not to the extent for which you hope.
My prayer is that you will stay away and let me have God. I will surely stand behind him and let him turn you away.